On My Bird Pt 6

... As I Sit Back .... Drinking ... A Black Cherry Sparkling H2o ... While Eating A Bagel ... Listening To What Goes Around By Justin Timberlake ... I Find My Self In One Of My Thinking Modes Again ... I Look At The Clock And Its 3:30am ... And People Ask Me Why Im Always Up So Late ... Its Because I Don't Like To Sleep ... I Feel Like When Im Sleep I Be Missing Out On Something Or Im Up Waiting For Change In My Life ... And The Only Thing That Come To Me While Im Sleep Is A False Reality That I Sometimes Wish I Was Living ... So I'll Rather Stay Up Living A Reality That I Know Not False To Me ... Plus Lately Stuff That I've Dreamed About Beens Coming True ... Like Little Stuff Nothing Big Yet But I Think They Call It A Premonition Or Something ... And I've Been Having Dreams Of Me Dying ... And To Help Avoid Those Dream To Come True ... I'll Rather Not Sleep ... Call Me Crazy If You Want ... But It All Makes Since To Me ... And Thats What Really Matter ... ha ... The Other Day ... This Girl ... Told Me That Im Special ... Not Like "Special" ... But Special Like Different From Everybody Else She Ever Meet ... And When I Asked Her How So ... She Said She Couldn't Explain It ... It's Like I Think Differently From Everybody Else ... Its Like Im Mysterious ... In Some Way That Its More To Me Then What I Show Everybody ... And That I Have A Story To Tell ... And I Laughed And Said First Off Your Crazy And Second Off Don't Everybody Got A Story To Tell ... Its Just Up To Them If They Tell It Or Not ... And She Said Right ... So Are You Going To Tell Yours ... And I Said Yeah Once I Know The End Of It ... Because I Don't Like Starting Stuff I Can't Really Finish ... And Unfortunately Once I Know The End Of My Story ... I Won't Be Able To Write The Story ... And Why Would People Wanna Know My Story Anyway ... She Said Because It'll Help Them Understand You ... And I Laughed Again ... Thats The Thing ... I Don't Wanna Be Understood ... It'll Just Make Things More Difficult ... She Asked Me What's My Biggest Fear ... And I Once Again I Laughed And Said If I Tell You That I'll Have To Kill You Because Then You'll Know My Weakness ... But I'll Tell You That I Fear Of Ending Up How Everybody Say I Am ... Which Is Nothing ... A Failure And Never Would Amount To Nothing In Life ... And As Of Right Now ... They Sound About Right ... And I Don't Really Like The Idea Of People Predicting How Im A End Up In Life ... And Trying To Knock Me ... Even If Im Not Doing Anything With My Life At The Moment ... I Think They Should Try To Motivate Me To Try To Do Something ... And Stop Stating The Obvious ... I Know Im Not Perfect I Know I Didn't Do Right In School ... I Know I Didn't Do What I Was Supposed To Alot Of The Times ... But Im Young And Im Human ... So Wants Again Stop Stating The Obvious ... Because I Know What I Did An Thats Not Helping My Case Or Situation At All ... I Don't Need You Putting The Shit Back In My Face ... But You Know Sometimes You Gotta Do Stuff You Don't Want To ... To Get Where You Want To In Life ... If Thats The Case ... Then So Be It ... I Guess Thats What Imma Have To Do .... So Imma A End This Here ... Because I Have To Sleep ... I'll Finish This Some Other Time .... Roman Numeral Uno ... =]

On My Bird Pt 5

... As I Sit Back ... Listening To Oh No By Lil Wayne ... I Came Across A Female Status ... That Said Something About All Niggas Dog ... And I Got To Thinking ... Hmmm ... Why Do Females Make All Niggas Out To Be Dogs ... ? Not All Niggas Is Dog ... Maybe Just The Niggas Your Attracted To ... Happened To Be A Dog ... So Why Should All Niggas Get Put Into A "The Dog" Category Because "A' Nigga Dogged You ... ? Thats Just Like A Nigga Putting All Females In A Category Of Being Sneaky And Deceiving ... Because A Female Deceived Him ... To Me ... Females Are Bigger Dogs Then Niggas Anyway ... And Females ... Play More Mind Games Then Niggas Do ... They Would Switch A Whole ... Incident Around On A Nigga And Make A Nigga Think About Him Self For A Second Like "Damn What Did I Do ... Did I Do Something Wrong" ... A Females Are "Not" Smarter When It Come To Cheating ...Its Just That Niggas ... Don't Want To Mess Up What He Got So He'll Keep It To His Self And Only His Self He Just Look At It As A Chick That Come To Him And She Gotta Boy Friend Or Husband ... He Don't Care What They Got Going On ... As Long As He Get What He Want ... And He Defiantly Not Trying To Be Her Nigga ... Just Her Go To Guy ... Cause All That Nigga Think Is What Yo Nigga Don't Know Wont Hurt Him ... And Honestly What Nigga You Know Wanna Mess Up Something He Don't Really Have To Put Any Effort Into ... ? So Thats Why Its Easier For A Female To Cheat ... Now If A Nigga Cheat ... Man ... The Female He Cheating With ... She End Up Developing Feelings ... And Start Calling The House ... And Be On Straight Dummy Mode With The Shit ... And Its Not Like Niggas Really Help The Case ... Cause A Dumb Nigga Would Leave Text Messages And Stuff And Slip Up And Send Texts To His Girl Friend Instead Of The Side Chick ... And The Side Chick Going Wanna Go Out And Stuff ... Got To Places ... That You Could Easily Get Caught Up At By One Of Her Friends ... She Going Want You To Buy Her Stuff And Shit ... And End Up Wanting To Become Your Girl ... So Thats How Niggas Get Caught Up ... It's Not Because They Better At It ... Its Just That They Situation Is Easier ... For Them ... So Back To It ... Don't Put All Nigga's .... In A "All Niggas Dog's" Or "Niggas Aint Shit" Category Because Honestly "Females Aint Shit" Either ... Remember Its Just The Niggas You Attracted To Happened To Be A Dog ...
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First Off Let Me Start By Saying ... " I Love You " ... I Know Sometimes We Don't See Eye To Eye ... And We Get On Each Other Nervous ... And We Be Feeling Like Killing Each Other ... Or Just Calling It ... "Quits" ... And I Know I Do Alot Of The Fucking Up ... And Can Be Complicated ... And Thats Why I Would Like To Thank You ... Because With Out You ... I Wouldn't Had Been Able To Find The Rolmel ... I Lost Years Ago ... The Rolmel ... That Like To Laugh ... Goof Around ETC . You Had Hope In Me When I Was Ready To Give Everything Up ... You Had My Back When Everybody Walked Out On Me ... You Help Me Find The Real Meaning Of Happiness ... You Helped Me Find The Real Meaning Of "Love" ... What It Actually Mean For Someone To Love You ... And For That I Would Like To Say I Love You Baby Girl Aka ... Mrs. Harris ... Man I Remember It Like Yesterday ... The First Time I Saw You ... I Was Walking In The Hall Way To My Next Class And ... And I Caught Eyes With You For A Slight Second Things Moved In Slow Motion ... I Don't Know What It Was ... Maybe It Was How Your Eyes Looked When The Light Glimed Off Them ... How Your Curly Hair Bounced Everytime You Walked ... How Your Jeans Hugged Your Thighs Showing Off The Lovely Curves Of Your Body ... How Your Smile Almost Made Me Forget Where I Was Going ... Right Then And There I Had Made Up My Mind That I Was Going Make You My Girl ... And My Future Wife ... So That I Can Be The One That Make You Smile ... Laugh And Be Happy ... All I Need Was The Perfect Time To Talk To You ... And Luckily That Time Came Sooner Then I Thought It Was ... Couple Days Later ... I Was Walking Towards The Door So I Can Go Catch My Bus ... And From A Far I Spotted Out That Smile ... And Stopped In My Tracks And Tried To Fix Myself ... Really Couldn't Do That Much Because I Was In My Work Clothes ... But I Continued In My Tracks You Was With Your Friends And Yall Had Yall Basketball Jerseys On ... I Walked Past And Said What Up .. And Gave Off A Little Smile ... And You Smiled Back And Said Hey ... And That You Liked Batman ... But You Thought Superman Was Better ... I Laughed .. And Said Is That Superman Was Gay ... And You Laughed A Little .. And Smiled And I Thought To Myself ... That There It Go ... The Smile I Wanna See Her With ... And I Smile Back And Continued Walking ... Your Friends ... Came Running Behind Me ... Talking To Fast For Me To Understand Them ... All I Got Out Of It Was She Wants Your Number ... I Laughed And Gave It To Them ... And Ran Off To My Bus ... The Rest Is History In The Making ... Love You Mrs.Harris =] <3

On My Bird Pt 4

As I Sit Back ... Drinking A Cup Of Milk And Eating A Strawberry Shortcake Listening To Pretty wings By Maxwell ... I've Once Again Found Myself In One Of My Thinking Modes ... And Right Now Im Trying To Figure Out Why People Run From Happiness ... If You Have Somebody In Your Life That Make's You Happy And Wanna Continue To Make You Happy Why Push Them Away ... Wait Let Me Explain Happy For You ... First Of All Let Me State That I Am Talking About Relationship Happy ... Far As Regular Happy ... Just About Anybody Can Make You Happy ... But Regular Happy And Relationship Happy To Me Are Two Different Types Of Happy ... And If You Ever Been In A Relationship Then You Know What Im Talking About ... But Back To It Happy ... If You With Her/Him And You Just Look At Them And For No Reason At All You Just Start Smiling ... And Can't Stop No Matter How Hard You Try ... That Person Make You Happy ... If Your Hugging Her/Him And While You Hugging Them You Fill Safe You Fill Wanted ... It Feel Opposite Of When You Hug Anybody Else ... That Person Make You Happy ... If When Your With Her/Him And Your Surround By A Whole Bunch Of People And You Forget That People Are Even Around You ... Its Not Just Because Her/Him Is Showing You A Good Time Its Because That Persons Making You And Makes You Happy ... If Your With All Your Friends And You Start Thinking About Her/Him And You Just Start Smiling And You Can't Stop Smiling Even After Your Friends Ask You Why The Hell You Smiling ... That Person Makes You Happy ... Do You Get Where Im Going With This Whole Happy Thing ... Maybe I Could Be Wrong But Thats What I Think Are Signs Of When Somebody Making You Happy ... Now I Don't Understand How People Run From That If Somebody Make You Feel Like That Why Run ... Why Leave Them ... Why Be With Somebody That Make You The Opposite Of Happy ... ? Ok I Understand That Some People Might Be In "LOVE" But People Know If There Happy Or Not ... They Know The Difference Between Being Happy And Not Being Happy ... You Not Happy If You Getting Cheated On ... You Not Happy If You Getting Your Ass Kicked ... Or ... Lied To All The Time ... You Not Happy If You Getting Sold False Dreams ... They Say Love Is Blind ... But I Don't Believe It Is ... Because You Know The Difference ... Its Just Up To You To Decide Wither You Go For Happy Or The What If ... I Guess I'll Never Figure This One Out ... So I'll Continue This One When I Do ... Roman Numeral Uno ... 

Hey You There ... 1/3/09

 

  

Lmfao ... This Is What I Do When Im Bored ... =]

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On My Bird Pt 3

.... As I Sit Back Drinking ... A Sunkist Orange Pop =] Listening To ... Are You Still Down By Jon B And 2pac ... And I Find Myself In Another Thinking Mood ... And ... Isn't It Funny How ... You Could Look At Somebody And Tell That There In Pain By Looking Them In They Eyes ... But When You Ask Them What's Wrong They Say Nothing ... How They Would Rather Walking Around In Grief And Sorrow ... Because They Believe That Nobody Would Understand What There Going Through Or Judge Them And Look At Them Different ... So They Put On A Fake Smile ... And Walk Around Like There's Care Free ... I Don't Care What Somebody Been Through ... Cause I Might Not Know The Pain There In Or Been Through ... But I Would Understand What There Going Through To A Certain Degree If Not All The Way ... Because To Me I Think Every Body Deserve Somebody They Can Go To ... To Talk To ... Cause In The End ... The Person Not Doing Anything But Making Things In There Life More Painful ... Keeping Everything Bottled Up ... Thats Why ... I Try To Be The Best Friend I Could Be Or Boyfriend I Could Be Because With My Guy's I Want All Us ... To Make It ... And Do Something With Are Self Despite What We Been Through ... Despite Stupid Decisions We Made In The Past By Not Doing The Right Thing And If My Guy's Ever Need Something And I Can Give It To Em I Do ... And As A Boyfriend ... I Want My Girl ... To Always Know Im Here For Her ... To Try To Keep Her Happy ... Keep A Smile On Her Face ... To Try To Give Her The World In More ... That Might Sound Corny But Its The Truth ... I Don't Never Want It To Be A Time Where She Can't Come To Me And Talk To Me ... I Wouldn't Even Feel Right If My Girl Couldn't Come Talk To Me ... Idk .................... Man Idk If That Have Anything To Do With Anything But Im Just Saying ... What's A Boyfriend To His Girlfriend If His Girl Can't Come Talk To Him About What's Wrong With Her ... He's Not A Boyfriend Right ... Which Means If She Can't Come To You And Talk To You ... Something's Wrong With The Picture ... Either She Don't Trust You ... Or She's Going To Somebody Else ... And That Don't Do Nothing But Push Her Away From You And You End Up Losing Her In The End ... Wait Hold Up ... lol ... I Just Got Way Off Subject ... So Im ma End This Here ... I'll Continue This Some Other Time ... Roman Numeral Uno ... =]

On My Bird Pt . 2

As I Sit Back ... Listening To Where Am I By Tyga ... I Get Into One Of My Thinking Modes Again ... My Cousin Had Her Baby Girl Yesterday ... And For Some Odd Reason It Made Me Feel Old ... Like Woow Time Fly By Fast Ass Hell ... It Seem Just Like Yesterday We Was In Middle School Going To The Socials And Stuff ... Now She Graduated This Year And Turning 18 Tomorrow And Is A Momma ... And Im Looking At My Self And Life ... Like Damn ... Im About To Be 18 In A Couple Months ... And Supposed To Graduate This Year ... What Am I About To Do With My Life ... I Know For A Fact ... Right Now I Don't Want Kids ... Because I Don't Have My Life In Order Right Now ... So Why Would I Help Bring A Life Into A Unstable Life ... When I Have Kids I Want My Kids To Have Everything I Didn't And I Wanna Be There For My Kids ... So In Order For Them To Have That I Have To Have My Life Straight ... Another Thing I Don't Want Is ... To Live Check To Check ... I Wanna Have Money ... I Wanna Be Able To Travel ... I Wanna Be Able To Drive Multiple Cars ... Live In A Nice Ass House ... Sometimes I Sit Back And Wonder Whats My Purpose On Earth ... How People Would React When They Find Out That I Was Died ... How Many People Would Care ... But Truthfully When I Die I Don't Want Anybody To Cry ... Hmmmm ... To Much Running Through My Mind Right Now ... Sooo Imma A End This Untill Next Time ...